has had a VERY BIG APPETITE today! I just want to get anything and everything I see. Honestly, I think it's a mix of boredom and stress. Boredom is because we haven't done much today. We were suppose to go hiking, but it rained. The rain stopped to late in the day and Justin is on call tonight (6pm to 6am). We will have to go on our hike tomorrow, if the weather is decent. Stress is because I have been unemployed for over a year now, since my teaching position was cut. I haven't had any luck finding a new position. Over this past year, I did substitute at the local schools, but it wasn't very much. I had to file a new unemployment claim and since I didn't make that much from subbing I'm only going to be bringing in $77 a week now. $77 x 4 weeks = NOT ENOUGH TO MAKE RENT!!! That is a huge cut from what I was getting before. Justin and I don't know what we are going to do. I was in tears last night over this. We need something good to happen to us very soon. It has seemed like the past year and a half has been a shit fest....a permanent poo cloud is parked over our heads. I know people say you need to stay positive, but it is very taxing and it wears you down after a while. Life just really sucks...it's so unfair! I think we need a miracle! If I was given 3 wishes, I would wish that I was offered the teaching position at the school I use to attend, Justin would be offered the Sheriff Deputy's position for the county, and all of our debt would be forgiven or paid off. Hell, I would be happy with just 2 of those wishes come true and I won't be picky to which ones either. Praying that my interview on Tuesday goes well and I'm offered the position that night or the next day (I heard the school has a board meeting the next day, so I'm assuming they would want to present to the board for approval).
Well, that's enough of my complaining for one night. Good night!
41.2 pounds down, 118.8 pounds to go
StarDar, I can really relate to the financial stress of your situation and how that can affect your desire to eat. There's sometimes in life that "it all" becomes so taxing and unsatisfying that I feel the urge to eat something like fries or cake just so that I can at least feel the satisfaction from indulging in those things do make me quite happy for that moment. Thankfully, those moments aren't that frequent but I do have them.
ReplyDeleteI am sending positive vibes your way that you get the position you're interviewing for on Tuesday. Keep your head up, and this too shall pass.
Thanks Gigi! Unfortunately, I didn't get either position I interviewed for. I don't know what God has in store for me, but I pray that is it revealed soon. I have been an out of work teacher since June 2009 and there are not enough subbing jobs where I live to be able to make rent. Unfortunately, I'm going to have to look for something outside of teacher, which I'm afraid will make it harder to find a position later on since I won't be in the schools.
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